好久没上来post了。。。
tmr is the last day of exam, after that i can die already...this year everything is just like a disaster...forget it! shall not think about it! anyway i m kind of like mentally prepared to die for this yr's eoy...sigh...

比较和改变

看了看以前写的日记，哈哈，发现以前的我似乎有那么些~~~傻吧~~~这就是写日记的好处。。。可以很明显地看出自己到底变了多少。。。怎么变了。。。为什么变了之类的~~~可惜我把小时候的日记给丢了，要不然不开心的时候可以拿出来娱乐娱乐自己。。。哈哈哈！！

感冒几天了，今天终于有了些起色。。。
早上rehearsal的时候，突然间想起了家乡的路边小吃，突然很想回家。。。
我跟妈说了LA考得不是很理想，她虽然没说什么，当然我也不希望她说什么，但是感觉怪怪的。保持沉默并不代表没事，并不代表她不介意。。。所以突然又有那种奋发的感觉，决定好好地读好LA!!! 然后还有humanities!!!
然后今天乔絮打电话来说不来补习了。。。也许是我教得不够好吧。。。
but this experience has certainly had a great impact on me...how to say...i think is just through all these lessons that i suddenly realised the criteria of a teacher. i used to think that, well, i learned that grade and i graduated from it, i am more than qualify to teach the lower grades...but i realised i m actually wrong...is not that way...it just doesnt work that way...there are still so much you dont know about it...let say you are in secondary, you may not know all the primary staffs, though you excel in primary school before...it just doesnt mean anything...just like so many times i cannot explain to her a lot of things, especially english, frequently there are times that i dont even recognise the vocabulary...well that can only mean one thing and that is my vocab is really limited...
and math as well, how surprisingly...i mean i just cant bring myself to accept it...i can only use algebra way to solve for her...besides that, i dont know how to use alternative ways to explain to her...(well actually my ex-tuition teacher did the same thing, i kind of suspect that she can only use algebra, just that she replace the unknown x with apples oranges stars and all that staffs.)...that s rather a sad thing actually...
现在我终于开始明白吴老师的话了。为什么她年轻的时候越教越不敢教，教的书越多，反而要求降低级别。有大学教到高中，再由高中教到中学，再由中学教到小学，现在又教中学。。。
因为她开始明白了，她看到了自己的不知天高地厚（不知天高地厚是她自己说的），以为大学毕业就能教大学，她开始发觉她错了。。。所以她选择了从大学教到小学。。。
我也发现我错了。。。所以呢。。。我要好好地加强我自己！！！
晚安吧！

小小的东西也能让人感动。。。世界其实很美好！！！
就好像前天，我在165号上面，要下车追前面那辆157，在我冲出车门时，那司机说道：快点，就在前面。（157就在前面）
但是跑得太快没来得及说声谢谢。
我觉得这个司机很细心。虽然说他是司机，按理说是知道南洋的学生要再adam food centre那站下换车，但还是会觉得很感动。因为司机叔叔他有那么多乘客，哪来的闲功夫去记谁谁要在某某下车，然后还会这么热心肠去提醒。
我后来甚至觉得在前一站那位司机是有意想要超过那辆157，好让我们能乘得上那辆车。（虽然没成功）这让我觉得更加感动。。。
然后就在那157上，我睡着了，幸亏有一个女孩叫醒了我，要不然得就过站了！！！而且她还不是我们学校的呢！
然后那个早晨我就一直觉得心情愉快！老高兴了！！！
可能真的像mr tan说得那样，青少年越长越大（思想上的），就越skeptical，总觉得这世界多么多么的不好之类的。不知从多久前开始，我就是这样想的。但如今好像又换了一种想法，觉得这世界其实也蛮好的，视乎你用什么角度去看罢。。。视乎在你眼里看到的事罢。。。你要这么看它。。。要是我记得的是为什么我学校的学生没叫醒我，那么我的心情一定会很差，但相反的我选择感到庆幸有人叫醒我，让我愉快了以整个上午：）！
然后就是赵老师说的话，很多时候都给了我一个，怎么说呢，冲击吧。。。就是她让我似有醒悟的感觉。。。
然后就是在想人之初，是性本善吗？还是性本恶？后来我想了想觉得两者都是与生俱来的。因为我总是觉得，天地万物都是取得平衡的。就说有阴，就有阳；有因就有果；有天就有地；那么自然有善就有恶吧。。。所以人之初，是有私心，也同时有良心的。。。至于后来成什么人，我想那就要看那人如何去选择了。。。人最宝贵的东西，我想，应该是良知，还有选择。而且是无论如何都会有选择的，只是看他要不要去选罢了。。。
夜已深了，但是还是不想去睡。。。也不知道为什么。。。总觉得还想做点东西，但是不知要做些什么。。。
mostly of the time i was thinking, where am i heading? for i am a person without any goal or any aim in life. 我尝试着去找，但是还是找不到。。。maybe it will just come to me one day...someday...with input of course...if not it will never come to you!!! same goes with my language arts...i think it s really time that i do something...something effective and helpful maybe? but what is it?? keep exploring!!! life s full of explorations...

事务在变，环境在变，一切都在变。没有什么是永恒的。不过以上这句话却是永恒不变的真理。当然人也会跟着变。。。没什么，只是有点感慨。。。晚安了各位！

suddenly felt actually i can a lot of things in one day...provided that i wake up early...not like sleep until 11 or 12 or even 1pm...
today got cello lesson at 9 that s why i wake up early
then i slept in the afternoon
then have tuition
then still finished all my homework
haha felt so pleased with myself!!!:DD
still thinking what to do tomorrow...
school started for one week already, i m facility manager again this year!!!
haha actually i dominated myself to be the facility manager cos no one wants to be...and i actually wanted to be...for some reason i think...but i dont really know what are the reasons...perhaps i know one, and that is, being a facility manager, one gets 6 CIP hours a year, ya!!! i think monitress got more lah but i wont go and nominate myself for such a post reason being you have to do a lot of things and i m not that kind that will do a lot of things...my motto is 能少做则少做，能不做则不做。。。at least for the time being!! ：）！！哈哈！！！
and by the way, it is not that bad after all, being a facility manager, just dont really understand why people are all like hated it or disliked it so much...
just in charge of cleanliness only mah
and then i drag jie yi along haha
so she will be in charge of cleanliness this year as well haha working together with meeee!!!:)
and time flies!! now is already 11 plus!! i think i should go and sleep if not i can sleep into my lunch time the next day...good night!!!:)

i suddenly feel like blogging...
actually is because i m too tired to do anything
well new class is not that bad
already started to know some of them
got 2 PRC scholars and 1 malaysian scholar who will be joining string ensemble!! a violist!
then same class as adelle! so fun!! heyhey!!!
the chemitry teacher never come today then felicia said that it s because she just cnt be bother haha. yan chun asked me to ask felicia to say sorry to the chem teacher cos she s her track coach and somemore is because she got what cca election thing...who cares about these kind of things~~~反正跟我没关系，我从不关心这些有的没有的事。though sometimes i will talk about it a little...
our chinese teacher talked damn soft, must really pay attention if not cnt hear a single thing...i wonder why nobody has ever complained to her...maybe batches before did but her vocal code is not able to allow her to go any louder...so that s it, we have to listen..
then the biology teacher, sigh...talked damn slow...forget it
still got the english teacher...suddenly feel that i shouldnt talk bad about the teachers for them, after all, actually out in quite a lot of effort to teach us...
aiya never mind lah, not always wah...
ok then the english keep stopping what he s talking
must he take that long to process what he is going to say??
anyway, i shall say something nice about them, the other day maybe, but not today...cos today too tired already...
and today i feel like wasting the whole day cos go school didnt do anything then come back also. reason is that i m too tired to do anything and the most inhumane thing is that my mum forbid me to take a nap reason being i will not be able to sleep at night...not until 2 a.m.
so the only thing i can do is to on my computer...change my blog skins...surf nets...actually didnt even really surf anything as my eyes are like keep closing...
tomorrow cca resume! cca resume!! oh my goodness!!! need to stay back already...hope to get as many sec1s this year as possible as mr sze will definitely be very happy if there s a lot of talented ppl! and if he s happy, heyhey our life will enjoyable too!!! but the most important thing is that play well and dont let him catch you not playing well or not practice if not can go and prepare a coffin for standby...choy choy choy!!!
i think now i can go to sleep already...it s already 9 plus...
ok then good night!!!
oh ya the time is not correct there
it s supposed to be 9.26p.m.

久别的blog我又回来了！！！

想想要说些什么。。。

首先，万圣节快乐！（虽然是有点迟，但是，better late than never嘛！）
还有就是提前：Merry Christmas!!! and a happy new year!!! 哈哈哈！！！

现在来讲讲我的EOY...

在我考完数学和科学之后，我知道结果一定不是很好，但结果还是出乎意料的糟糕。我看到卷子的时候还愣了几秒钟~~~

所以。。。我最后的总成绩也被拉下得只能用一个字来形容，‘惨’！

数学最后只拿了84%
科学我想想就想锤心肝~~~77%！！！！！！！
华文也就那样了。。。81%
人文学和文学就不用说了，跟去年没两样，连个A2都没有。。。

咳，原本还想刷新我成绩册中有B的纪录，看来还得指望明年了。。。

anyway, 过了就过了，只好明年再加油了！

今天我去考了malay oral proficiency examination, 结果9 out of 10 我是保持沉默的。。。我连他问的是什么都听不懂！！！什么沉默是金啊？！这次我可真的要fail了，唯一会回答的就是：
nama awak siapa?
nama saya zhi yuan.
然后其他没一题会的。。。:(

想来有些日子没拉琴了，趁现在还有点时间赶快去练些，否则，被指挥骂得狗血淋头的厄运会在不久的明天来临。。。

我想想应该有一段时间没上来写写了。。。
实际上，发生的是到不少，值得一提得也倒有一些，只是不知道该写什么好。。。
说说cca吧，我在乐队里还是拉得最差劲的一个，也就是没什么进展。。。
算了，不说这个了，换个话题吧！

就说最近感觉越来越不了解maybelle,或是越来越了解她了。。。
有的时候觉得她在想什么好像很容易就能猜得到，但是有的时候却觉得，原来很多时候，并不是我所想象的那样。。。所以感觉很复杂。。。

哈哈，还有就是，我对我自己在呈现英文分享的表现感到良好！应该是很不错了！因为对我而言，我的英文程度一向不怎么好，所以有这样的成绩我觉得已经是鼓舞人心的了！

还有一件足足让我难过了三天的事就是刘翔受伤这件事。。。我差点，不对，应该说已经，哭了起来。。。呜呜呜！！！真是难过啊！！！算了算了，不提了，再写下去我看我又得哭了。。。

津如叫我将她也写写，那人家已经开了口了，况且我人又这么好，怎能就这么拒绝她呢？？于心何忍啊！！！老实说，有的时候，我真地为她所做的事而感动。总之就是说不上为什么，就是有那种感觉啦，总觉得她永远都那么能令人感到开心，肉麻地说一句，令人感到些许的温暖。。。

我有的时候真的在想，究竟彦淳这帮人到底是贤友还是损友。。。不过我觉得我已经有答案了。。。给你温暖的人，给你欢乐的人，给你领悟的人，给你这么多这么多的人，包括一些不大好的影响~~~到底是贤友还是损友呢？~~~。。。。。。。

好了，今天辩论，我方胜出了！：）
对方的实力也是相当强的，当然，可能是因为他们谈论这个话题的范围不够广，所以输了。
基本上也没什么好说的，就那样吧。。。
接下来来谈谈今天选exco members的事
下面是这一批的exco members
president: caoyun
vice president: kimberlyn
treasurer: joan
head librarian: shirlynn
quartet mistress: Regina
clap clap clap......
还有就是，最近越来越觉得，给人带去快乐的人实际上真的能得到幸福。。。
怎么说呢。。。
好像我帮熙晨买了concert band的票，因此就牵动了felicia and sun yang go and buy the tickets。。。她就很开心了，那我也觉得蛮开心的。。。
其实有的时候就是这个样子，别人脸上的笑声与笑容往往是那么具有影响力，往往都能把你融入到哪种心情中！
还有就是，最近有一种领悟，因该说是慢慢建立起来的。书真得很有感染力。就算是你不是那种人，但是你知道书中讲的事是非常有道理的，至少我会这样，我会劝自己去做正确的判断，甚至有时，比自己这么做，到头来，不难发现，那便是正确的做法！